I don’t know why I expected anything different.

I mean, why would my mom come to my senior awards ceremony. It’s not my graduation, that’s two weeks away, so having a back-up baby sitter would just be ridiculous. Why would I expect to get a reward for theater or band or even chemistry. I am no where NEAR talented or smart enough for those kind of awards. Hell. The last award I ever received was perfect attendance in the 5th grade. And after all that shit was done, why should I expect my bag of memory shit to even be where it was supposed to be. Or even think that if it was out that anyone would put anything in it. Why should I expect my mom to actually arrive on time to pick me up, or to actually take me to diner and pay any attention to me. Ridiculous. I mean, the people at the other table could tell I have had to put up with taking care of my dumb ass mom for as long as I have been around. And my mom can’t even tell I am upset in the slightest. But why should I expect any differently?
Only good thing that came out of this mess, was my finding out how much one of my friends parents actually cared about me that is to how kind I was to his daughter, and adults giving me hope for a better future, not just my friends. And….now I am home and I can just cry and let all my emotions out.